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In camp.

Nope, not gonna end there. (though it is pretty obvious nothing special I did cause I am stuck in camp)

I have learnt that December is the best month. Not just Christmas. It is the last month of the year.

It is where you would think what you have done, what you have both gain & lost, and knowing what you really want and accomplish. You should be thinking this every single minute of your life, but sometimes we neglect the importance of having a clear mind, and always distracted by the heart. 

Most of you guys fall into either of these categories:

1. THE MOST FAMOUS LIFESTYLE; didn't do shit this year, just "nua-ing" and rotting. Nothing bothered you, nothing much gain nor lost. The stagnant one

2. THE LOST ONE; feelings are uncontrolled, impulsivity, confusion, or lack of  determination & passion. Having shit piling up into a mountain, or a hole dug deeper till the core of the Earth.

3. THE ACHIEVER... A + B = C; right atttitude + right behaviour = first in character. Let's just say the they are going higher every moment, in any pace.

I must say I fall into category number 2. Yes. Feelings had the best of me. I can say all the shit that has been thrown at me, but HEY.. I believe that God would only give the shit that He knows you can overcome. Can grow from. So I must say, I did a lot of reflection, and I am taking it all on me. 

It is not easy this year. Really. Enlisting to National Service, not able to keep my career going by landing into another movie, not able to have my relationship controlled, which also led to the hacking incident despite my intentions were to stand for the right things.

All I had is to have the right intentions. But my actions, my words, were so devoted to my feelings, that my head was not thinking about consequences at all. The word "consequences" was as if deleted from my dictionary.

To be a soldier, a role model, a boyfriend, brother, son, friend, colleague ... being under the limelight, facing all the insults by myself, being only 20 & ambitious.. it is hard, but I could have done better. I wouldn't say, "I don't deserve so much shit" cause I would hate it if all that didn't happen at all. As much as I thought I had lost a lot. Friends, trust, some fans, but I have gained knowledge, experience, and have clearly understood the importance of knowing the consequences. I am still fortunate, I ain't dead. I am still earning. Living. Breathing. I still have people around me. I am not alone. And I have myself standing strong and embracing every single thing in the past. No regrets. 

20. NS. A time where I am changing from a boy to a man ... man I will have to be, for the rest of my life. I know the light is bright in the other end of the tunnel. And I hope you guys can learn not just from me, but with me. Cause I do learn from things from you. Every one of you that I encounter in my life. Be it if we never knew that well or we had a relationship or we still do.. people you meet in your life either change you, or you make a change in their lives. Big or small, don't stay stagnant.

So to close this blogpost, let me say, more videos will be up soon. I promise you 2 originals before #ridhwananbes flea which is on the 08.02.2013 (45 days to more)

THESE ARE THE MEASUREMENTS. $39.90 each.

Venue: S*cape@2nd floor

Date: 8th February 2014.

Time: 12pm to 5pm.

Those who pre-ordered ($20 transferred on February 2013), just collect it on that day. Names are on a list posted on this page earlier. Pre-orders has long been gone. Please LIKE my comments below this post, on this page, accordingly to the preferred sizes, based on the measurements. There will be a lucky draw on that day. Stand a chance to win a surprise. So more shirts bought, more chances.  #YouCantGetRidOfThisOne SPREAD THIS AROUND 

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE COMMENT ON THIS POST WHAT SIZE. AND SEE THE CHART AND MEASURE YOUR BODY LENGTH. Don't ask me "11 years old what size?" cause all 11 year-olds have different body size -.- PLEASE COMMENT, cause I would not want some you guys to come and the size you guys want is out of stock.

For those who pre-ordered, COMMENT ALSO. And just come, I have the list. Don't worry.

And if you guys can't come, what are friends for right? :)

For the ones staying in Malaysia/Brunei or etc.

Email me at ridhwannabe@hotmail.com cause it can be delivered to your country, BUT EMAIL BEFORE 5th Jan :) More details will be mailed to you.

So yea, Merry Christmas & a Happy New Year. To all my friends who stayed with me, all #ridhwannabes that I very, very, very thankful for and special thanks to my family & my bestfriend Jianhao Tan. I wouldn't make it without you :')

Mistakes

So, Little India had a riot. I am not gonna blog about it. Go read the news.

So people start thinking it is right to make funny tweets about it. The nerve of some people in this generation, making a joke out of something that could jeopardize our country's security. Shame on you. Then after a while they stop. And haters saw that I coincidentally posted a cover, of Lil' Wayne's How To Love, and they think I was trying to feed on the tragic news. Really? It hurts to see, at this point, where I am trying to clean up for a pleasant ending, despite the epic journey it has been, people are so heartless. I meet a lot on strangers on the streets. Mostly families with children would be happy to see me. Wave and smile to me. #ridhwannabes , don't need to describe them. And they are not tentatively 12 year olds. Like how the haters like to say. I have seen elderly people who really admire what I do. And I am heartened with their support and enthusiasm. I just hope our society can mature. Learn. I am learning. I make mistakes. I admit, and get back up right after. Example: Why did I voice out to the AnonymousSG? They were influencing he weak minds of our youth. Breaking chaos in not just the cyber security, but also the society. Weakening Singapore's psychological system. I may not have the right words. But I am not a trained public speaker. I am just being myself, a normal teenager, who thinks such negativity has to stop. Now #SGRiot.. Lives are in danger and parody accounts feeding to get RTs and followers? Stop tackling every trend. Be a trendsetter. Not talking about me. But make something positive trend. I trend lame stuffs, I admit. But it is for entertainment. I can take a photo of a toilet bowl in my Instagram and get on popular page, so I deserve to be insulted that much? I trend, cause of #ridhwannabes . All fans, supporters, that look up to their idols would want to spread his or her name across social media. And it comes to Dee Kosh, who possibly could lose his job after he claims he tweeted something racially insensitive and gets flamed. I insulted Dee Kosh indirectly by answering an Ask.Fm question. That was bad. But I was just being straightforward. I thought it has always been like that for Dee. But Dee fought back, and sucks that he hates me. While I am saddened by the outcome. I don't like his ways. He doesn't like mine. He talked shit about me when my account was hacked. I didn't do anything back. I don't like to make enemies. Singapore is very small. Life is very short. Even for Tzire. Ask him, how times I tried to talk things out? Who didn't want to compromise? I am not sucking up to Dee when I gave him a sincere and good tweet. I think he was not being racist. He was trying to be funny. And yea, wrong timing. Just like how my cover was blamed to feed on the #SGriot . I mean, I know how it feels. I have done a lot of mistakes. The most I think out of all the onlince personalites in Singapore. I tried to explain, admit and apologise, but haters will always be there. This. Is. Because. Of the society. They are like me and Dee Kosh. We all are in the same society. We just play different roles. But the society as an overall has to mature. Especially some of these "keyboard warriors". Stop judging. Stand in someone's shoes. Do some positivity. You see something fucked up? Then don't say it's fucked up. Don't swear it. Learn from it. If you can, advice it nicely. Do positive things, think positive thoughts, be around positive people. And yes, I know some of you think.. "Ridhwan, you are bla bla bla bla..." I mean, do you even know me that well? I am not perfect. My actions are amplified. I am known for many bad things. But at the end of the day? When you contribute to that hatred against me? Do you know how much it hurts? I am hurt. Yes haters. I am cry. What? Don't be a celebrity? You think I wanted this? I wanted to make videos. Sing. Entertain. Not this nightmare, of being judged always. Make friends, earn enough for my family, and always have something for those who believe in me. Hate never, love another. And to the hacker. I am not being ironic. You have fuck up my relationship with my ex-girlfriend. My career. My pride. My rice bowl. My life. My everything. You have receive nothing compared to what you did. To both Asyiq Bin Tahir, and Azhar Bin Tahir. I pity you. Why did you do it? For Luna? Was it worth it? Why insult the Government? Work hard. Your dad is working hard too, driving his taxi. He cares for you, fetching late at night when you have no transportation home. Think. Learn from your mistakes. I won't humiliate anymore. Waste my social media. I will just see you in court. And for your other friends who are not charged, what goes around comes around. I realised I have a lot of people I hate. I see people hate others on the Internet. And that's why I made this post. The change has to start from me. Forgive my haters. Hate never, love another. And it is okay to make mistakes, just get back up again.

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